Let me start by saying that my husband is an amazing husband and father. He works very hard to support myself and our son so that I can stay home with Clayton and we don't have to put him in daycare.
With that being said. I also work very hard. Being a mother and home maker is no easy task.
I keep the house clean, pay the bills, grocery shop, keep the laundry done, feed the baby, entertain the baby (while performing all of the above tasks!), have started cleaning a few houses to bring in extra money, trying to get my jewelry business going, bathe the baby, take care of the dogs, do all the cooking and dishes(we do not have a dish washer!), keep the maintenance up on the vehicles, fix little things around the house....
the list goes on and on.
All I ask for is a few hours a week, actually 3 to workout without a baby in tote.
The other 3 days a week that I work out he is with me either jogging or walking at the park.
I need this time to be a better person. To not resent myself or to become to overwhelmed.
I adore my son and LOVE being a mother.
I just feel like that without a little time to ourselves and
getting out of the house alone for a minute causes us to go crazy.
Then I get to thinking and feel guilty for feeling this way. After all it's my job.
I decided that I wanted to be a mother.
Then looking at it from the other side...
is asking for 3 or 4 hours a week out of 168 hours that are in the week really a bad thing????
Does that make me a bad mother for wanting to get away for just a little while?
I mean I am working out. Trying to improve myself.
Just a few hours to take for myself not chasing a crawling baby around.
To breathe and relax and do something that I really enjoy.
I mean we are teething here and that alone is driving us both batty!
So yes I had a meltdown today and with it came a ton of tears. I of course felt better once I got it out and after confiding in some wonderful people I realize that it's not a bad thing to need time to myself.
I just have to remember I am only human. I am only one person. Just as my baby has needs so do I.
I have put most of my needs 100% on the back burner, but for me to be the best mommy I can be every now and then I to need a little 'me time'.
|Try to remind myself of this|
Until Next Time,